On the eastern shore of Maryland in the early 2000s, Troy grew up in a home she thought was full of love. Below the surface there was abuse and turmoil. Unbeknownst to her, her father’s drug use and physical abuse would alter her life for years to come. One night I patiently waited for my father to come home but was informed that he never would. Since then I has been on the path to mental stability, recovering from trauma and trying to cope with the anxiety and depression she was left with.
In 2003 when I was just 7 years old, I came home one evening from my grandparent’s house eagerly waiting to be greeted by my father's presence. Skipping across the yard my curls bouncing around my face, wearing the pink track suit my grandmother gifted …show more content…
I’m sixteen years old attending Northwood high school in the dead town of Pittsboro. It had been about seven or eight years since I had seen my father. Once a daddy’s girl, the only person I cared for was my mother. She supported me through everything and pushed me through school when I felt I couldn’t go on. My only two friends left school and there I was, alone. My anxiety and depression have developed and tackling school became one of the hardest things I have done thus far. While everyone was going out or dating or driving; I was home doing none of those things. I didn’t want to be like everyone else but I wanted their abilities. I remember my first time getting in the car. I was excited to learn how to drive. My first step to freedom. As we pulled off I felt my body start to tense. My neck hurt from straining and gripping the steering wheel for dear life. So many thoughts ran through my head. I don’t know how to switch lanes, what if somebody hits me or I hit them. My mom is in the car and I didn’t want to mess up.What would she say? Would she feel safe? All of these feelings and thoughts overwhelmed me to the point where I began crying. I needed to stop I couldn’t continue. I wanted to stop right where I was, my mom was in my ear “Troy you can’t have a break down right here.” That didn’t stop it from