Taylor Whitaker
Sullins/English 1101
9/10/13
Lost, but never found
Based on a True Story
Getting lost at 7 years old seems pretty scary, but being lost at 7 and never being found is even scarier. She was never abducted or ran away. She simply lost herself. It is hard for a 7 year old to realize that she lost herself. It would not be until a few years later when she realized. The worst part is that still to this day she still hasn’t found herself.
At 7 years old, all a kid wants is love. Especially when they are scared, they want to run to their parents and have them love on them and tell them everything is going to be alright. One night the little girl got scared from having a bad dream. She ran to her mother’s room only to find her step dad. She thought nothing of it. She ran to him and he said everything would be alright and that moment time everything she had was gone. She lost herself. A piece of her was taken away.
She did not understand it. She just wanted to be loved and told that everything was going to be okay. She never knew he was going to take something from her and that it would be lost.
Forever.
Five years have now come and gone. She still did not understand. Something was taken from her and something was taken from her almost every single day for the past five years. She struggled to figure it out. She struggled within herself to go on. She just simply never understood it. She lost herself by someone who she thought was supposed to love her, not violate her and abuse her.
From the abuse to the court dates, to the therapists, to the eating disorders, to taking too many pills, to losing all of her strength, all to find herself again. It is harder than you think. She knew doing it by herself would be very hard. She knew she had to try. Who was going to help this poor girl?
Dr. Karen said, “Tell me Taylor, how are you feeling today?”
Taylor said, “I feel lost. I feel distraught. I feel alone.”
Dr. Karen said, “What makes you feel this way?”
Taylor said, “I feel as if a part of me has been stolen, a piece of myself that I can never get back. I feel as if it is lost forever. I am lost forever.” She feels lost forever because some scumbag stole something from her that is gone forever. Her childhood. She can never get that back.
Dr. Karen said, “If you could talk to your perpetrator, what would you say to him?”
Taylor said, “I would ask why, why me? Why take something away from me that I can never get back. You have taken everything within me leaving me lost. Lost to this world and lost to myself.” Healing and comfort both take time and patience. Maybe she will find herself again.
Dr. Karen said, “Look in the mirror. Tell me what you see.”
Taylor said, “I see myself. I see a troubled person.”
Dr. Karen said, “Keep looking. Keep searching. Find yourself.”
Taylor said, “I can’t. I don’t know where I have gone and if I will ever come back.” She sits holding the mirror. She wonders if she will ever find herself again. Until that day, she will continue to wonder. She will continue to question herself. Until then, she will be still be lost and yet to be found.