Days before departure to the UK, everything seems wonderful and bright. I was looking forward to it and cannot wait to have a glance on the “empire on which the sun never sets”. I am always someone who desperately looking for freedom and exploring new things as my motto is that the human’s life was never too long and ought to be utilized by exploring and changing consistently. Therefore, I thought that changing and adapting in a new environment was never a problem to me.
The first week that I have arrived to UK, things do not happened that how I expected. The invasion of loneliness, homesick and culture shocked were continually gusting my mind, I was surprised to experience these as a “foreign element” and trying to revise the “status quo”. (Satir et al,1991) As the “foreign element” arose, a period of “chaos” then ensues. Thoughts in my deep were crumbling and I really cannot belief that I was so unadaptable at time encountering a new environment that I once yearned. I have got freedom that I never had but I am not happy with it. However, a while later my conscious was told that it is worthless to struggle. I began to wonder that there probably has a way out and I believe that this is the “transforming idea” stage which I am approaching to terms with the reality of the situation and experiencing acknowledgement and acceptance. (Kubler-ross model) I have seen the light, or at least a glimmer of hope. But it still takes time to ease my feelings and try to put myself together again in order to fight against the unwillingness. Guess “integration” is on its journey.
To remove the negative emotion, I now knew that an adjustment might need to alter the current situation. I was glad that I am able to overcome my inners conflictions and embrace the forthcoming “changes”. So it turns out that I decided to find a part time job that could made myself feel busy in