Alex appeared at my door the next morning to escort me to church. The drive was nice because the road curved around Lake Moultrie. Lakeside Community Church was a massive church that had expanded—with parking of course—onto seven acres. Thank God it didn’t have a school, otherwise I’d probably be living there.
The interior had a color palette of earth tones. The carpet was a color that hid dirt well and the wall colors complemented it. As you walked in, there was a reception area with donuts and coffee along with racks of cd’s from recent sermons. The sanctuary was offset from the entrance and when you walked in it was big enough that it echoed if there weren’t enough people in there.
Alex surprised me as he took my hand and held it as we …show more content…
Being surrendered to Christ, the possibility of danger, certainly, couldn’t be worse than what I’d dealt with in the past. In fact, maybe it would make the pain mean something more than just scars. If Jesus wanted me, then I was all His.
If I accepted God’s calling, though, would it be because I wanted it or would it be because of Alex. Yeah, it would be cool to share that with him, but that couldn’t be the reason. I had to accept it because it was my hearts desire not because of a guy. I wrestled with that for hours. The best solution I could come up with was just taking a leap and letting God chose the timing.
I spoke quietly, “I don’t know if anyone’s asked before but God, if you’re listening, I want the Calling and I want the gift. I give myself to you, whatever that might mean.”
The next morning when I woke up, I thought I’d feel different, but I didn’t. Alex was going to be picking me up in an hour so I quickly got showered, dressed, and grabbed breakfast. I waited anxiously at the curb, and Alex didn’t disappoint when he pulled up early. I smiled and jumped in the car.
I shivered and handed a strawberry pop tart to him. “It’s cold out there."
“Thanks,” he began munching and I …show more content…
The people, the things you are going to do could get you killed,” he said, raking a hand through his hair.
“Yeah, but this is the best thing that ever happened to me." I shrugged my shoulders, “I didn’t even think God heard me last night."
He narrowed his eyes at me, “What do you mean?"
I bit my lip, “Well, you know, I was lying on my bed last night and kinda started talking to God..." I grinned holding my lip with my teeth.
I’d never seen Alex angry before, but I was pretty sure I’d just provoked him. “Why would you do that?”
“Why?” I desperately wanted to make him understand. “Why not? If this calling makes what I’ve been through worth it then I think it’s great.”
He looked at me puzzled. “What you've been through?”
I looked down. It wasn’t something I was willing to talk about, especially at school.
“Okay.” He wrapped his arm around me, and kissed my forehead. “I would be okay with it if I weren’t falling for you." He reached into his pocket. “Here, take this, and never, ever leave it anywhere. I don’t care where you have to put it." Alex handed me a small cell phone.
“You don’t care where I put it?" I teased him.
“No, I don’t. It has a GPS unit in it. Maybe, if Nick had been carrying one, he’d still be