Tragedy of Sandy Hook

It’s been two years since the tragic killing at Sandy Hook Elementary School. On December 14th 2012, 20 year old Adam Lazan stormed into the school taking the lives of twenty innocent children and six adults and his own mother. To this date, I believe that this is one of the most heart-rending and grievous events that has happened. How could someone have the audacity to take the life of a single child yet alone twenty? What could this young man possible be going through to take it out on mere babies? One cannot comprehend why Adam would cause a lifetime of heartache and pain for the families of those who lost love ones in one dreadful day. I try to imagine how scared those children must have been but also how braved they were, trying to keep quiet and motionless so they could live to see this day. Images of their friends being killed before their eyes will forever be tainted in their memory.
On a personal level, my heart broke for the fallen. A mother waiting for her child to return from school, a husband waiting for his wife, a sibling waiting for his/her brother/sister to play with; only to find out that day will never come. Their lives have been taken away by a man, who did it for selfless reasons, a man who took out his own personal distress on little girl who will never see a next birthday or go to her high school prom. He dealt with his anger and frustration on the little boy who would never get his license or be the next star player on the football team. He let out his rage on the teacher who would never go home to her kids or get engaged. I mourn for those who never got a chance and for the families who are to this day still experiencing the most dreadful pain of all.
What was this man’s motive? The answer to this question will forever be unknown as this young man took his own life after his shooting. But I believe that it is not a motive that’s needed but the cause. What was going through Adams head days, hours, minutes before the shooting? I believe that targeting small children, first graders, was the only way Adam could control emotional dominance. It was the only way he could manage because they were small and weak, hence the reason why he killed his mother in her sleep. Persons who knew him said he was a timid and compliant individual and was never aggressive or threatening but I think that this is the image he was trying to portray while plotted his plan. I believe that Adam experienced something that pushed him over the edge. In my honest opinion, Adam was not in his right mind. He was said to have a mental illness and OCD but it was much more than that. Mental illness is a behavior pattern that is seen when a person interacts and Adam was isolated from society, even his own mother. As a parent you should have some concerned as to why your son, minus himself from the world. Adam spent his time in him room, on the computer and playing video games; games that involved shooting and killing. His life was shrinking down to little more than video games and violent fantasies. If he’s mother was aware of this and paid attention to these behavioral patterns, I think that some action could have been taken to prevent what happened on this dreadful day. Adam violent fantasies would have remained just that, a horrific fantasy. Unfortunately, on December 14th 2012, I was heartbroken as I listened to how one young man took the lives of 27 person; his mother, employees and students at the Sandy Hook Elementry School. Everything in life has a lesson behind it, and this serves as a test for parents to get more involved in their children’s life. To try their best to get into their heads and understand what you child is going though as an individual. No one would have thought that timid Adam could do such a thing, but he did. In the same way understand your child that history doesn’t repeat itself. It takes much more than a week or a month to fully comprehend and understand the full scope of what actually happened and even more time for sense of loss to sink in.
Each day there is a silent battle between good and evil; and on that day, evil won. It is only human to wish such realities didn’t exist. So many lives were affected on that day by this tragedy. I’ve asked myself countless times what kind of person would do such a thing and why this had to happen. Its frustrated me to know that I may never fully understand and though I wish I could, the hands of time cannot be turned back; on that day of devastation