It’s the first day of class and I already want to go home. You want to know why? I don’t know either. I just don’t feel like going to class today, but I have to.
I went to my first class. And guess what? The teacher was boring me to death. I wished this semester was over because of her. I sighed. Then someone from behind me tapped my shoulders.
“Yes?” I said as I turned to look at the person. Oh, a girl.
“Sighing on the first day? That’s not good.” Then she smiled.
Okay. That was weird. I was like ‘are we close or something?’, though I didn’t tell her that straight to her face. I just laughed. I’m not good with talking to girls, especially those who are prettier or cuter than me, even though I’m a girl too. I get intimidated by them. I’m the kind of girl that’s more comfortable with guys.
“Is there someone sitting beside you? Is it okay if I sit there?”
“It’s okay, I don’t mind”
“Thank you!” and then she sat.
We didn’t talk the whole time after she sat beside me. Maybe she doesn’t like me. I didn’t want to talk to her anyway. She seemed like a bitch.
I sighed again, and then the teacher dismissed us. I was in a hurry to get out of that room but someone tapped my shoulders, again. And it was her, again.
“What’s your next class?” she asked.
“Its Business Communication, but I still have a 2-hour break before it starts. What about you?”
“That’s my next class too; I think we have the same schedule. Mind if I look at your schedule?”
“Sure.” Then I gave it to her. After a few scans, she gave it back to me.
“You want to hang for a while? I’m kind of new here so I don’t know anyone. We have the same schedule anyway. Or am I bothering you?”
“No, it’s okay. I have to go to where my friends are though. You can come with me if you want. I’ll introduce you to them.”
“Really thanks!” then she hugged me. Even though it was very awkward, I hugged her back.
“Wait, what was your name again?” I asked her.
“Aisha, it means alive; she who lives. *laughs* Oh don’t mind that, what’s yours?”
“Alexiane. But I prefer to be called Xia, it’s much shorter.”
We went to where my friends were and introduced her to them. And as expected, they all started asking her questions right off the bat whether she has a boyfriend, what’s her type and whatnot. But when I looked at her, she seemed uncomfortable with the guys, so I called her.
“I didn’t know you had a lot of guy friends.” She whispered
“Sorry, I forgot to tell you about it. Don’t worry, they’re all nice.” I just smiled at her. And she smiled back. Okay, still awkward.
Class already ended. You know what? She sat beside me in every class. She may be pretty but she’s actually kind of anti-social, especially when it comes to guys. As I was leaving class she asked me where I lived. I was surprised that she just lives at the other street. What a coincidence eh? Since we live near each other, we agreed to go to school together.
Nothing much has changed, still the same as yesterday, and will probably be the same until the end of this semester.
We went to where my friends are, again, and we hung out there until our next class. Today, Todd was awfully quiet today. He usually is the one who talks the most. So I asked him what was wrong.
“Can I ask you a question? It’s very important. Let’s talk after our classes end.” His hand on the back of his neck, it seems really important.
“Oh-kaaaaaaaaaay. Meet you later then. Message me when you’re out.”
“I’ll tell you when the guys and… Aisha… is not around. She might hear it.” Todd whispered to me.
Oh, I know where this is going. It looks like Todd likes Aisha. Ah, love.
Classes were dismissed early because the teachers had a meeting. I messaged Todd while Aisha went to the bathroom. And yes. He wanted me to help him with Aisha.
“Not my thing, but I’ll try my best.” Then I tapped him on his shoulder.
He laughed and he jokingly said, “I’m lucky you’re a girl. If you we’re a guy, she would probably fall for you. It happens most of the time when I ask for help in courting a girl.”
Gave him a light punch and said “Meh, never gonna happen. Even though I’m boyish and stuff, I still like guys.”
“If you were only more of a girl than a boy, I would’ve considered dating you.”
“And if you were a bit manlier than me, I’d date you too.” We were both laughing. Then Aisha came back and we all went home.
“You too look good together. Are you guys a couple?” she suddenly asked me.
“Oh please, not that guy. We’re best friends since high school. That’s it.”
“Oh haha. Cool.” Then she smiled. Okay, so, awesome. I think this’ll be a piece of cake. It looks like she likes Todd too. I’ll make them a couple in no time.
We were walking to school when I asked her the things she likes and what she hates. And what he likes in a guy.
“Any guy would do, as long as he’s nice and treats me well I guess?” she said that happily.
Then she added “What about you? Do you have a boyfriend?”
“Oh I don’t have one. I’m not pretty at all, and I’m kind of boyish so most guys think I’m a lez even though I’m not. I like guys too you know.”
“Is that so?” Then she smiled again. She’s always smiling. That’s one thing I like about her, I think?
During our break, I told Todd about the things she said and he asked if he wanted flowers or chocolates. I just told him that I think she doesn’t care about those things, just be nice to her.
“Let’s invite her this weekend. Let’s go out drinking. I might tell her how I feel then.”
“Do you seriously need alcohol every time you confess to someone?”
“Not really, I just missed you guys and its fun drinking. And I want to drink with you guys. That’s how we all got close and stuff right?” then he chuckled.
“Fine then, I’ll ask if she wants to go out drinking with us then.”
“Thanks, Xia! I owe you a lot.”
“Yes you do. You still owe me a donut and a taco, too.”
“I’ll treat you next time, I won’t forget I swear!”
Then we all went to our classes.
Classes are dismissed early again. I wonder if our teacher’s lazy too. Oh well, as long as I graduate then that’s fine.
We walked home together. I asked Aisha if she wanted to come to drink with us.
“Sure I’ll go. You’re going too right?”
“Of course I’ll go. I won’t leave you alone with those guys. Haha.”
“That’s the second time I heard you laugh. It’s kind of cute.” And there goes that smile again.
“I’m kind of flattered, thanks.”
When we were in front of her house, she gave me a kiss on the cheek.
“Okay, that was weird…” I told her
She was giggling while she told me “You’re silly, that’s normal for girls.”
“I’m not used to it…”
“Not used to it, yet. You’ll get used to it soon. Good night! See you tomorrow!”
“Yea, good night.” Then she went inside her house.
I still got that feeling on my cheek. I kind of like it. Oh god. Am I going to turn into one of those girls that do those things? I facepalm myself and just went home.
It’s Saturday today and later tonight Aisha and I will be drinking with the guys at My Place. It’s a bar near our place so we usually go there.
Later that night, Aisha messaged me to pick her up at her house. Wow that’s new. I went anyway. When I got there, it looked like she needed help on what to wear.
“Oh just wear what you like.”
Then she started stripping in front of me.
“Whoa, tell me when you’re going to change!” I told her that while I turned around.
“You’re funny, were both girls silly. Or… do you swing that way?” She told me jokingly.
I wanted to pull a joke on her. While she was dressing up, I grabbed her shoulders and pinned her on her bed.
“Xia, what are you doing?” she kind of looked scared, but I still wanted to scare her more.
“You asked me if I swing that way didn’t you? I don’t know, maybe I am. Maybe I’m not. Let’s find out shall we?”
I touched her cheek, then her chin. And then she just closed her eyes. I burst out laughing.
“Are you seriously thinking that I would kiss you?” I laughed again.
“Well, you looked serious. And I was scared you know.” She looked flushed too.
“I know. I just wanted to see your reaction. Sorry.” I stuck out my tongue and she laughed too.
My phone rang, and the guys were already waiting at the bar.
“It looks like we have to go now. I’ll wait for you downstairs, get dressed up.”
She just nodded. I hope I didn’t make her feel awkward with me a while ago. I was just messing with her anyway.
We went to My Place. We saw the boys sitting at the far end so we went there.
“What took you guys so long?” Todd was giving off that worried face. “I thought you would never come.”
“You’re such a worrywart, Todd. Here talk to Aisha for a while; I have to go to the bathroom.” Then I gave him a wink.
When I was about to go to the bathroom, Aisha tugged my shirt.
“Oh, Aisha, that’s okay, they won’t bite you. I’ll be back in a sec.”
Then when I came back, they already started drinking. And it looks like she getting comfortable with the guys. That’s cool then. I sat with them and started drinking.
A few hours later, and it looks like most of us were tipsy, except for Aisha. I think she was drunk already. She was laughing real hard. And what do I see here? Todd’s arm is around Aisha. I wonder if he already told her how he feels about her. I texted him and asked him. He replied quickly. I told her I liked her and asked her if I could date her. And guess what? SHE SAID YES!
Wow, that was hella fast. But all’s well that ends well. I jokingly replied to him that she might forget that tomorrow. I worry about that actually. I’ll just take a picture of me kissing her, to show her some proof.
Then he did kiss her, on the cheek though. Then he had that big grin on his face. Okay, that was weird.
“Wait guys, I have to go to the bathroom.” I told them.
“Wait for me! I have to go to the bathroom too.” Then she stood up and went with me.
“Are you still okay?” I asked her while we were in the bathroom.
“Please lock the door for me?”
“Sure… But why do I have to?”
“Just do it please.” And so I did.
And after I locked it, she went straight to the cubicle and puked. Oh, so that was it. I went inside to help hold her hair up.
“Seriously, you could’ve just told me you were going to puke.”
“I was embarrassed. I don’t want anyone to hear me puke. They might think I’m gross.”
“That’s a natural thing, Aisha. You drink too much, you puke.”
After I said that, she puked again.
“Let’s just go home okay?” I told her.
“Okay. Sorry.”
So, we went back and told the guys we were going. Todd offered us a ride home. He dropped us at Aisha’s place, said good night and went on his way.
I escorted her back to her room. I laid her down and said I was going. When I was about to open her door, she said something.
“Don’t go. Stay here. Don’t leave me.”
I thought she was dreaming because her eyes were closed. I just open the door and was on my way too, but she spoke again.
“Please Xia, don’t leave me.” I think I heard her sobbing then.
“Okay, but only for tonight. I didn’t know you’re such a spoiled girl.” And I lay down beside her.
“Xia...” She mumbled.
“Yea? You want something?” I asked her.
“I’m sorry about what happened a while ago. You must think I’m gross now.”
“Nah, don’t sweat it. I told you its normal. I do too, just not much anymore.” I laughed. She laughed along as well.
“You should probably go to sleep Aisha. Don’t worry; I’ll be here whenever you need something.”
“I’m fine already. You don’t have to help me out with anything.”
“So, that means I can go home now?” I told her jokingly.
“NO! Please stay here. Can’t you just stay here for the night?”
“I was kidding, Aisha. I’ll just go sleep on the sofa in the living room.”
“Sleep beside me.”
I sighed. But I still went to her bed and I lay down.
“There. Are you happy now?”
“Yes, very happy. Thanks.”
“Okay, then go to sleep now. I’ll be sleeping in a while too. Have to do some shopping first thing in the morning. Good night Aisha.”
She said good night and then gave me a kiss on the cheek. “Goodnight kiss.” She said. Then she smiled.
“You should stop doing that you know? I might fall in love with you.” I laugh. And then she suddenly got quiet.
“Guess you’re asleep already. I’ll be sleeping too then.”
I slipped into the bed beside her, with my back turned to her. I was almost asleep, but then I felt hands on my side.
“Whoa, you scared me. If you wanted a hug—“
“Xia, have you had any boyfriends before?” She interrupted me.
“What brought this up now? And here I thought you were already asleep.”
“You didn’t answer my question yet, you know.”
“Well, I’ve had a couple of boyfriends. The longest relationship I’ve had lasted for 2 months.”
“Why is that?” She looked sad.
“Maybe… Well, I think guys just don’t like women who are manlier than them.” I told her.
“It’s good that you broke up with them. They don’t know your worth.”
“Aww. Thanks. I’m flattered. But then again, let’s not talk about this. It kind of depresses me. It reminds me of my ex-boyfriends.” She was silent again. But I decided to ask her something anyway.
“How are you and Todd? You two look good together. And plus, he’s a nice guy.”
“I… I don’t actually know what to do. He’s okay but… What do you do when you’re in a relationship with someone?”
“What? Don’t tell me you haven’t had any boyfriends before him?” I was really shocked when I heard this.
“He’s my first boyfriend. So, what do people do when they have someone?”
“Well. First you should get to knowing each other first, then being sweet, I guess. After that, there’s kissing, and well, there are other things too. But if you love each other, it’ll come naturally.”
“I don’t know how to kiss though.” Seriously? How naïve could this girl get? I expected her to know more stuff than me. I think she’s super sheltered. I should remember not to do that to my kids.
“You want me to teach you then?” I laughed, and then I looked at her. She was nodding. I stopped laughing. “Kissing someone, you should just do it with someone you really like.”
“It’s just practice anyway. I don’t want Todd to know I can’t kiss.”
I sighed. I’ve been sighing a lot lately ever since I’ve started hanging out with this girl. “Okay, okay. But this is just between us okay? I don’t want anyone to think I’m a lez or something.”
“I promise I won’t tell.” She smiled again. “Okay, close your eyes now. And imagine I’m Todd.” She closed her eyes, I closed in on her. I can smell her mixed scent of alcohol and perfume. Then I remembered she puked.
“Hey, uhm. You did brush your teeth right?”
“Oh yea. I forgot about that. Lemme brush my teeth for a sec.”
“Want me to go with you?”
“Nah, I’m fine. I’ve already recovered from being drunk.”
“Wow, that was a fast recovery.” I mumbled to myself.
“Thanks. I’ve always been like that. I recover fast. Wait for me there! I’ll be back in a sec!”
15 minutes passed. I got worried. I was thinking, “I should’ve gone with her to the bathroom. Did she faint?” Those thoughts were going through my mind. I then went to the bathroom.
I saw her there; she was still brushing her teeth. I was standing there, with my mouth open. “What are you taking so long?! I thought you fainted here or something!”
She finished brushing her teeth, and then showed her usual smile. She then tugged me back to her room.
“Now where were we again?” She was grinning. “Okay, now you’re scaring me. I think I’ll just let you learn on your own. I’m sure Todd will teach you.”
“Oh c’mon! Teach me please! I won’t feel comfortable unless it’s you doing it.”
“Whaaat?! Why me? Let’s just sleep. I know Todd won’t mind. Plus, he’ll be glad to teach you ‘stuff’.” I laughed really loud. She looked like she was annoyed. I gave her an apologetic look. She sighed. I sat on the edge of her bed. “We really shouldn’t be doing this you know. Like I told you, you should ki—“
She pushed me on the bed. And now she’s on top of me. “I know. I shouldn’t kiss someone I don’t like. But guess what?” Then she kissed me before I could even reply. I kissed her back anyway. I mean, who could resist those super soft lips? And to tell you the truth, it’s the first time I’ve actually kissed someone. Man, she was good. It was turning me on. When I realized this, I pushed her away from me. “What… What was that?”
“You liked it didn’t you?” She stuck her tongue out. “You actually knew how to kiss.”
“And you don’t.” She was laughing so hard, it kind of insulted me. “Well, sorry for not being a good kisser. It was my first time doing that kind of kiss. And it’s with a girl.” I put my hands on my face.
“Sorry about lying to you. Todd’s not really my first boyfriend. I’ve been with a number of people already.”
“Well, thanks for making me look stupid.” I was mad at her now. She was playing with me all this time. And now, she found out I can’t even kiss properly!
“I told you I’m sorry. I don’t know how to make you kiss me. That’s why I told you all those stuff. Don’t be mad now please.”
“Why would you want me to kiss you? I told you I’m not into girls. I’m straight. I’m just boyish.”
“I know that. And for your information I’m into guys… and girls.”
I looked at her, she looked like she wasn’t kidding.