When i heard about the assignment, i couldnt believe that it was actually true. i thought that my friend was just joking and laughed so hard of how crazy an assignment like that was. Apparently, she was really telling the truth and from that moment, i kind of froze. i asked her what we should do. i felt really scared about the assignment and i dont know how i would do it alone. when im done asking questions about it to my classmates, i keep on complaining about it for every person i met, to my classmates in finance, to the people who are done in socio 111 , to those people who have the knowledge or experienced in buying this thing, and most especially to my mom and dad. i was telling them what and how should i do it without feeling awkward and is it allowed for us young people to buy this kind of things? and ofcourse i know the answer was yes, but i was just really over reacting that time that if only i could pay someone to buy for me, then i will do it. well, they kinda gave advices but all were just forgotten because at the end of the conversation, i should do it alone, to make the activity succesful and meaningful. tuesday, october 8, 2013, was the day that i had the courage to get the assignment done. so, at around 8 in the evening, i went to the convenience store to buy a condom. i was very uneasy during that moment. i had mixed emotions. i was shaking, i was very tired because it was already late, and still i have a lot to do at home. assignments, quizzes, examinations began to fill my head and this, this very task, was making my head hurt. when i entered the store i saw people falling in line, it made me feel to go outside. but itstead i walk around the store, back and forth, keep on spying the cashier's area, watching if no other customer is around. when i saw no one, i quickly go to her and grab the chance to ask. i examined the face of the cashier and thought of what i would say to her. what would she think of me? buying a contraceptive this late at night? im doomed. but time was runnign too fast, so i finally had the courage to ask her, "te naa moy baligya condom?", and she replied "naa, unsay brand? pila kabuok?" i dont know what to say, was it sold by box? was it sold by piece? what are the different kinds of brands are there anyway? i really have no knowledge about these kinds of things. and so i blurted out, "kanang isa lang te, kanang pinakabarato" and so the transaction goes on. i can tell her face was already jusging me, so i paid for the cheapest one and went out of the store as fast as i could. i couldnt wait to go home. wearing a uniform that time was really a bad idea. i had thoughts of ginving the school a bad image, and that ive ruined a school's reputation. clearly, the feeling was not good. adding the fact that i am a woman, buying a condom that late, i dont know what else to think. i may not go back to that store ever, im afraid the cashier would recognize me. i dont even know what she was thinking when she looked at me. maybe it was just my imagination or maybe not. im just scared of the fact that the cashier might forever look at me as somenone impure and wild incase she would see me again. as a filipino christian, i believe in sex after marriage, so my experiences back there was really awful. i dont understand how certain people my age can do these kind of things withought having to feel any type of shame. i realized that people in my age are not supposed to buy these kind of tyhings. these items are for adults and for adults alone. we should respet ourselves and wait for the right time. we shouldnt become too reckless. my experience made my perspective strong that i really should wait for the right time, so as not to experience a shameful situation like that again.