Oblivion Back in the sweet summer of 2015, I had fallen for your smile. I had fallen for your eyes and your lovely personality. It was in June where all of this started, in the beautiful, serene area of San Fransisco. Sure, our feelings had been noticeable throughout the year, but they truly blossomed in this cable car state. Each of us had no clue that we would end up where we are now. Both fearful of rejection, both craving affection. I remember walking down rustic streets and strolling through old musty dungeons, with you holding me close. This seemed like a dream. You had given me a reason to smile. I didn't think anyone could care for a silly, ugly girl like me. You proved me wrong.

Neither of us had ever had a real, true relationship. …show more content…
We talked often, but just as friends. We both knew our feelings were still existent. But we continued to ignore them. To this day we don't talk about the things we wish we could. I still fantasize all of this, and as soon as it comes close to becoming reality, I back away. There was even one point where you almost called me and told me how you felt. I didn't answer. What’s wrong with me?? I’m an idiot.

Im so scared but most of the time, I find myself wishing you were mine. I want you, but I don't. I want to express my feelings, but then again, I can’t. I want to be with you, but I’m not ready to commit. When I see you, I am complete. When you hold me, I am fulfilled and at home. The downside to all of this is how far away we live from one another and how tight our schedules are, and those things make our situation worse. There are so many excuses for us not being together, but there is no excuse for our happiness. We deserve each other, or at least I wish I deserved you.

I was so ready to ask you to that Sadie’s dance, but now I can’t and I want to tell you about the whole thing so bad. I want to explain everything, but I can’t find the words. I want to give you this piece of writing, but you wont