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“You will never win your freedom, you cannot escape fear.” The radio played with zero disruptions no static, no sounds. Nothing ever interrupted the transmissions no movement, no voices, no nature. There were plenty of people to disturb the calmness, yet no one ever did. They were all afraid, afraid of what the autarch could do to their families and themselves.

“Aaron?” my mother’s soft voice snapped me out of my thoughts.

“The transmission is over. It’s time to start walking to the hexahedron,” she spoke quickly and quietly. She too was petrified of what the autarch and his night shadows -or shades, as we call them- could do. I sigh deeply and rise from the uncomfortable chair I was sitting in. All people are required to sit while the transmission …show more content…
I refuse to fight, when that horrid person came with my brothers dead body at our door he gave us one very specific warning “No one overcomes fear, no one is allowed to defy me” I remember it vividly. I can still hear his menacing voice ringing in my ears. I do not try and fight the shades, I cannot overcome them. That is the difference between me and my brother. I cannot let my parents lose another child. I can’t leave them or Elizabeth –my best friend- she has no one else. Her parents only care about their safety. I need her and she needs me. All of these thoughts were swiped away as I stepped outside -still following my mother- to see Elizabeth waiting for me. I step in front of my mother and quicken my pace to reach her faster. Even though I see her every day I still feel like I need to be around her to be happy. She was first to …show more content…
My eyes widened slightly at her outburst. I was shocked at her outburst; Elizabeth is usually calm and level-headed. She stomped off and shoved a few people as she stormed into her house. My mother turned around and met my shocked expression with her own concerned face. I sigh and decide that Elizabeth needs time to herself to cool down. I am outside my house which is conveniently is right across from Elizabeth’s. I turn to see her frantically rushing around her room through her open window. Her eyes catch mine and she swiftly reaches to pull the grey curtains shut. I follow my mother inside my empty house. The rest of my day drug slowly along. All I did was go back to the Hexahedron twice more for mid-day and evening meals. Elizabeth did not walk or sit with me either times. She was still livid. I don’t know what to do to earn her forgiveness. I don’t even understand why she is angry in the first place. Darkness swept across the bleak landscape as night settled in. I have to go figure out what is wrong with Elizabeth. A whole day is enough time to cool

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