Part 1 : “That’s it! That’s the sixth time you defended your girlfriend in public. You can’t continue to do that. Your fans will get disappointed in you. I can’t tolerate this behavior you have. I’m letting you date but you are leaving such a big mess for me to fix? Is that how you thank me?” Yang Hyun Suk shouted at Seungri as he threw the magazine on the desk.
You’ve been dating Seungri for two years now, during these two years many fan girls got jealous and attacked you, Seungri was present when it happened and he defended you. Even went to taunt them to stop in order to protect you. He was always acting cute when you were dating and all but when you were hurt, he saved you immediately and showed a rather scary side of him.
This time, a few fan girls tried to push you off a river whilst Seungri went to buy you two something to drink. Luckily Seungri came back in time to grab your hand but instead, both of you fell into the river. The river was deep and you weren’t a confident swimmer, he managed to get you back onto land. The fan girls that pushed you were still there and now they were accusing you for getting their dear idol all wet. “SHUT UP! What are you guys thinking? HOW CAN YOU PUSH A WEAK GIRL INTO THE RIVER? AND ACCUSING HER FOR GETTING ME ALL WET? IT’S ALL YOUR FAULT! I DON’T NEED FANS LIKE YOU! GET OUT OF MY LIFE” Seungri yelled at the fan girls. Snap Snap! People around took photos and videos of the whole process and now it’s all on the headlines: Seungri shouts at fans to save his girlfriend. Fans push Seungri’s girlfriend into the river, Seungri goes crazy.
“I’m sorry for the trouble I’ve caused but I won’t stop protecting her. She’s the women I love. I will do anything I can to protect her from fan girls because afterall, it’s all my fault.” Seungri apologized to Yang Hyun Suk, he bowed and left the room. “I can’t let things go your way anymore…” Yang Hyun Suk mumbled to himself.
Hello I am Yang Hyun Suk, Seungri’s Boss. You probably know me. I know you are dating Seungri right now. I would like to meet you for lunch later on at the restaurant down the road from our company, I know it’s rushed but I hope you can make it.
Your phone vibrated and you saw the message. You checked your planner and made sure you didn’t have any lunch appointments. You replied his message with a yes and waited till lunch came.
You made your way to the restaurant and saw him waiting for you already. “I’m sorry I’m late.” you apologized as you sat down. “It’s okay, I’m just early. Why don’t you pick something to eat first.” he replied as he handed you the menu. You picked a light salad which arrived very quickly. The two of you started to enjoy your meal whilst he started complementing you.The mood was generally easy going but you thought it was weird for him to invite you to eat lunch just talking bout nothing really..
“There’s actually a reason why I invited you to lunch. You see, you are a wonderful lady and I truly think you and Seungri match a lot. He’s been working very hard since the two of you started dating but the thing is he’s been getting into a lot of trouble with his fans whilst protecting you. Have you every thought that you might be a burden to him? Perhaps you guys should stop dating for a while. Seungri’s career may be completely ruined if you continue to date him and he continues to protect you. You don’t want that to happen right?” Yang Hyun Suk asked you as he suddenly changed the atmosphere.
You looked down at your hands, He’s right, you thought to yourself. You stood up and grabbed your things. “I understand, sorry for bothering,” you managed to get the words out, you turned around and walked out of the door. As soon as you made sure you were out of his sight, you ran back to your office with tears. You took out your phone and pressed the buttons to send a message to Seungri: It’s Over. Thanxs for everything. Bye.
For the following week you didn’t answer any of his phone calls or text messages but you still got threats from fan girls. It. Just. Won’t. End. You quit your job leaving your boss clueless. She asked you to stay but you just left with tears. You locked yourself at home for the whole week doing nothing.
“There’s no way they will stop annoying me. There’s nothing I can do. I might as well leave this world. There’s nothing left for me to treasure. There’s nothing that I will miss. Yes, I won’t miss anything.. I won’t..” you thought to yourself. You took out bleach and detergent and started to mix it. You poured it into a cup and mixed it with some red wine until it looked like a normal cup of red wine. “I hope it won’t taste too bad” you said to yourself as you started to pour it into your mouth. It tasted disgusting but you swallowed it all.
You could feel your whole body heat up and soon you just flopped on the couch unconscious.
Your phone vibrated non-stop. Seungri was still shocked and extremely worried about you.
Honey what’s wrong? We were so good! What happened? Are you okay?
It’s been a whole week! Reply me! PLEASE! I’M BEGGING YOU!
Please don’t make me cry, I never cried for real in front of you, but now I don’t know what to do other than crying alone.
WILL YOU PLEASE REPLY ME! I’M VERY WORRIED!
Are you at home now? I’ll come find you now.
Seungri stood outside your door and rang the bell. No reply. He rang it another time and still no reply. “Honey open the door. PLEASE” he shouted, but of course, you couldn’t hear him. You’ve been unconscious for an hour now, just a little bit more, and you will be gone from this cruel world. Seungri started to bang on the door, he banged so hard that his hands started to bleed. “Why don’t I have a key?” he shouted and kicked the plant next to the door. Cling. It gave off a metallic sound.
“I’m not going to give you a key to my place! But then if something does happen, there’s a key in the plant there” Seungri finally remembered your words from before when he begged you for a key to your house. He picked up the keys and pushed it into the key hole to open the door.
He saw you lying on the floor head face down. You slipped from the couch to the ground. He turned you round and saw a white substance from your mouth. “WHAT HAPPENED? WHAT DID YOU DO?” he yelled. He looked around and saw the wine glass next to the bleach and detergent. “WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO YOURSELF?” he shook you but you gave no response. He carried you and ran out of the house to his car. He laid you down and buckled you up. “Don’t worry, I’ll take you to the hospital very quickly.” he whispered and kissed your forehead before driving the car at 160km per hour.
A police caught him speeding and signaled him to stop but he ignored him and continued to zoom to the hospital. He pulled up right outside the hospital and carried you to the emergency department. “Please help her, she drank bleach and detergent!” Seungri begged the doctors. “Please calm down and wait outside. We will do what we can but you can’t stay here.” the nurse said to Seungri.
Just before he could continue talking a police tapped him on the shoulder. Sir, you were speeding way past the limit and you ignored me when I told you to stop and you parked your car in a no parking area. I am going to charge you for three things. “I DON’T CARE! JUST CHARGE THE HELL OUT OF ME! I NEED TO MAKE SURE SHE’S OKAY! TAKE MY KEYS AND DRIVE IT SOMEWHERE ELSE THEN!” he yelled out the police officer. “Sir please calm down, I understand perhaps you were desperate. I can ignore the first two as long as you move your car now” the officer replied kindly. Seungri turned around and apologized “I’m sorry for my behavior, I’ll move it now. Thank you for being considerate.” He ran out of the doors and went to his car and parked it in the parking lot. He called his hyung’s and told them about the situation. They all came to support him and you.
It’s been 4 hours and you were still in the operation room. All of the BIGBANG members sat outside the operation room and a whole load of reporters tried to smuggle in the hospital and get a glimpse of what is happening. Fortunately, the security guards saw them and ordered them to leave. “Hyung, what am I going to do? I can’t live without her? It’s all my fault. I should have noticed this earlier. She must be under a lot of pressure dating me. What should I do…” he broke into tears.
TOP put his hands round Seungri’s head and held him close. “It’ll be fine, I’m sure she’ll survive. Don’t worry.” TOP tried to calm Seungri down. “Seungri get a hold of yourself, do you want her to see this side of you?” G Dragon ordered him. “Oi hyung, he’s having a hard time, Seungri, it’ll be fine, she’s such a nice girl I’m sure she’ll survive.” Daesung comforted him.
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Another two hours passed and finally the doctors came out. I’m sorry but we’ve tried our best…
Part 2 :
I’m sorry, we’ve tried our best. Seungri got up from his chair and shook the doctor violently “WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU’VE TRIED YOUR BEST? HOW IS SHE?” he yelled at the doctor. “He probably means she’s left us..” Taeyang said quietly.
“Sir please calm down, we’ve tried our best, she’s awake for now but she wont last long, at max, another hour. But that is if she doesn’t talk. But she wants to see a man called G Dragon. She doesn’t want to see anyone else. That’s her wish. If you would please excuse me, I have to go save other people’s lives now.” the doctor replied.
“WHAT DO YOU MEAN SHE WANTS TO SEE JIYONG? I’M HER BOYFRIEND!! WHY WOULD SHE WANT TO SEE JIYONG AND NOT ME! WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT! YOU MUST HAVE GOT SOMETHING WRONG!” he shouted and started punching the doctor. “OI SEUNGRI STOP THAT” TOP shouted at Seungri and pulled him aside letting the doctor leave.
“LET GO OF ME” Seungri glared at TOP and shook himself free. He walked over to JiYong and slapped him “WHAT DID YOU DO TO MY GIRLFRIEND? SO WERE YOU THE REASON WHY SHE LEFT ME? I THOUGHT YOU SAID YOU WON’T TRY TO STEAL HER AWAY FROM ME TWO YEARS AGO. YOU SAID YOU WERE OVER HER! HOW CAN YOU DO THIS TO ME WHEN I’VE ALWAYS THOUGHT OF YOU AS A GOOD BIG BROTHER!” Seungri was loosing control and he tried to slap again but JiYong held his hand. “I don’t know what is happening either but stop being so childish. Let me go in and find out what she wants to tell me before she leaves us without us knowing anything!” JiYong halted Seungri.
JiYong pushed opened the door and went near your bed. “Why did you do this to yourself? Why did you want to see me? Why not Seungri?” he asked.
You opened your mouth to speak but it was a lot harder than you thought. The bleach and detergent damaged your vocal box and it takes a lot of strength to speak. You smiled at JiYong “I couldn’t bare the pressure anymore, I decided to run away. But maybe in a stupid way to you all. I didn’t want to see Seungri now because I’m sure he’ll blame himself and won’t listen to what I want to say.” you paused to catch your breath, it was taking a lot of energy and you were tiring yourself but you wanted to finish telling him. “I must have hurt Seungri a lot by doing this. Please help me do something. I left a letter for him on my desk at home. There’s also one for you. Can you please give it to him. And as for the funeral, don’t make it big. It’s been nice meeting you all. Thanxs a lot. Please tell him I love him. And I loved yo..you.. too…” your heart beat stopped, it was as if time froze.
JiYong kissed your forehead “You really are stupid to run away. You hurt me back then and now your hurt me again and you have to hurt that baby out there.” Jiyong laughed and kisses your lips before he turns around to leave. He pulled open the door to be greeted by Seungri’s attack. Seungri pushed him aside and went into the room.
“Ya! Wake up! I’m here now! I’m here to pick up my princess. So stop sleeping. Ya… get up! You were never this lazy! I..I.. was the lazy one. You can’t leave me alone. Who’s going to wake me up in the future? Who’s going to cook me food? How can I live without you! GET UP! I DEMAND YOU TO GET UP” he yelled at you. Your face was so pale but it showed you beauty without any make up, white and pure. Seungri broke down, he was lying next to you crying. “You are so mean, you have to make me cry! Now I’m crying for you, you can wake up now. You can’t be that selfish and leave me alone. I’m begging you……….”
The other members came in after a while to comfort Seungri. He got up and slapped JiYong again. “What did she say to you? Why did she only talk to you? WHAT IS GOING ON BETWEEN THE TWO OF YOU?” he screamed at JiYong. “It’s because of your childish behavior that she doesn’t want to see you. You’ve been dating her for two years and you don’t even have any faith in her? You think she will be unfaithful to you? Is that all you could think of? Did you realize all the pain she was going through? If you weren’t selfish and let her go, maybe she wouldn’t take her life. And now all you could think of is that SHE IS HAVING AN AFFAIR WITH ME? ARE YOU ALRIGHT? You ruined the life of such a wonderful girl. You have no idea what you’ve done.” JiYong left the room leaving Seungri crying and the others lost of words.
JiYong went to your house to collect the two letters. He didn’t give it to Seungri yet, he wasn’t sure if Seungri could take it so he decided to wait. JiYong took the letter that was addressed to him and carefully ripped open the envelope.
Hello JiYong,
By the time you’ve read this, I’m probably already gone. Thanxs for taking care of me back then. You were the one that introduced me to Seungri, I really appreciate it. Although I decided to be with Seungri, I truly loved you during the time we spent together. It’s not your fault that we couldn’t be together. Please don’t blame yourself for that incident. I was too sensitive and was firm that you cheated on me when you really didn’t. I’m writing too much.. I would be guessing that Seungri is still in a very depressed mood. I guess you still haven’t told him about the letter huh? Hmm I know you too well. You are so kind to your brothers, you only hope for the best. I hope you could help Seungri out of all this. Lastly, I truly loved you. Thanxs for everything.
A month passed and you had your funeral done the way you wanted it to be, plain and simple. Seungri hosted it and told all the guest that you were his wife. After the funeral, JiYong gave him the letter you left him. “Why did you give me this now?” Seungri asked in monotone. “If I gave it to you earlier, you wouldn’t have read it properly. Please go home and read it carefully. I don’t know what she wrote to you but I’m sure it is something important that she wants to tell you.” JiYong smiled and ruffled Seungri’s hair before leaving.
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Seungri held on tightly to the envelope and put it inside his jacket. He drove back to the dorm quietly. He parked the car and went in the house straight to his room. He took out the envelope and slowly tore it…..
Part 3 :
He took out the envelope and slowly tore it… He took the letter out and started to read it, slowly tears start to fall..
Hey Stupid!
Haha! I bet you are going to cry very soon. Or actually I should say you must have cried a lot for me already. Thank you and sorry. Thank you for giving me so much these two years. They were the best and the worst two years of my life. It was awesome to be with you, it was nearly like a dream. I didn’t know if it was real or not. But then the brutal reality was presented by your fans. I guess I’m just too weak. I couldn’t take it anymore, I decided to run away. Sorry for making you so sad now. Please don’t blame yourself. It’s all my fault. It’s not yours! So don’t be stupid!
To be honest, I didn’t want to stay by your side because I thought I would be a burden. Your boss talked to me before I started to ignore you. He told me everything that I already knew but things I wished wasn’t true. But hearing it from someone else made me be sure that I should leave you for your good. Of course, it will also mean that fan girls will stop attacking me. That’s what I thought. But I guess things never happen the way you want it to.
Hmm If I’m correct, you should be crying a lot by now. Don’t get this letter wet! It’s very important! I spent a lot of effort writing this haha. Well to show that I’m sorry for making you cry so much, I’ve left you a present. But it’s a present that you’ll have to find. I’ve hid some letters with clues to the next one. It’s going to be fun to watch you find it from above in heaven haha.
Alright, lets start with the first one! It’s in my house, you’ll have to search the whole house then! Bye!
“Why are you so stupid? I don’t want any other present. Will you be there at the last envelope.” Seungri said to himself as he finished the letter. He took his keys and went to get his car. “Seungri where are you going, it’s so late already, you should have some rest.” Daesung asked. “Please leave me alone there is something I’ve got to do.” Seungri replied and jumped into his car.
He drove silently to your house and went inside. He looked around the house and flash backs of the time you two had together kept popping up in his mind. “You are so evil, you want me to cry again! I know you are watching! I’m not going to give up until I find the letter!” He went around the house searching in every possible corner. Finally he reached to the bookshelf and went through the rows of books and found a pink envelope. “I told you I’d find it!” he shouted out.
Hiya!
WOW you really did come and find the letter huh? Good job! Do you know why I hid it in the book shelf? The first time you came to my house, you hid a necklace there whilst I went to the toilet. You managed to steal a kiss from me when I came out of the bathroom as well! You were such a cheeky boy!
You probably didn’t notice since you are so stupid haha but then there’s two photos in the envelope as well.
Seungri looked into the envelope, “You really do know me well huh, I really did miss the photos..” he mumbled to himself. He took out the photos, the first one was the polaroid you two took when he gave you the present two years ago. The second one was another one that you took before you committed suicide with the necklace on. Saranghae. You wrote that on top of the second photo. Seungri held the second photo to his lips and kissed it. “Saranghae..”
You probably stopped reading to go check if you missed out the photos. Well of course you did! I just told you! Don’t do anything embarrassing with the photos, you know, hug it or kiss it.. Aigoo, you probably already did that since you are just so that type. Oh well I guess it’s why I’ve fallen for you.
Well then, lets continue the treasure hunt shall we? The next one is in your room. I asked JiYong to hide it for me so I don’t really know where it is :P Bye now!
“Why do you always have to ask JiYong to help you do things? It makes me jealous you know!”
For the following week, Seungri kept hunting for your letters, each of them had photos of the two of you and a message from you. Finally, the treasure hunt was coming to an end…
Hey Honey,
This is going to be the last letter I’m sending you. I hope that these letters helped you cheer up. I’m sorry for making you hurt, I really am. You are [this] close to getting the present haha! Notice that this envelope was a bit heavier? Even though you are so stupid you should be able to notice that! The key there is a key to the locker in the bowling centre we went before. Your present is there :) Well done for going so far. I love you.
Oh and the last thing I’m going to say to you. Don’t be stupid and get jealous of JiYong. Two years ago I left him for you. (And well there’s also the thing bout me misunderstand him for cheating on me but well who cares right haha) I picked you, it means I love you more. The reason why I find him to help me out with stuff is cause he is a friend to me. A good friend. Not my boyfriend. I only have one boyfriend and it’s this stupid little boy that gets jealous so easily but is so sweet and caring and good looking. His name is Seungri.
So are you happy now? Well hurry up and go get your present. I love you! Bye!
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“I guess you wouldn’t fit inside the locker after all.. so the present won’t be you… You really know me so well. I’ll never be able to find a person that knows me as well as you do. I love you too” he took the last envelope and pulled it close to his lips “Now I wonder what is the present…”
Part 4 :
He drove his car to the bowling centre and searched for the locker that the key will open. 518, 519, 520. He pushed the key into the keyhole and opened the locker, a pink card was hanging from the top.
Did you know why I picked this locker? Because if you read 520 in mandarin, it means I love you.
There were heaps of people around the lockers trying to catch a glimpse of their idol. Seungri read the note and smiled. “I love you too” he whispered. He took the paper off and looked inside the locker. There was an A4 sized box wrapped in beautiful wrapping paper. On top of the wrapping paper it said: To Seungri, Please open at home.
The crowd didn’t move at first when Seungri turned around to leave but he gave them a glare that was so unexpected from the maknae which scared everyone. He got back on his car and drove back to his dorm. He went right passed everyone without even saying hi and slammed the door behind him.
He took off the tape carefully and got the wrapping paper off. He opened the box and found a card that said Instructions.
1) Read this!
2) The small box contains photos we took together. I developed them all, don’t worry I have a soft copy for you.
3) The blue usb contains all the photos and videos we took together
4) The green envelope, hmm you should remember this, it’s a stupid colour for a love letter. You wrote that two years ago when you confessed, you were such a dork, but that’s what I love about you.
5) The yellow usb is the final present.
6) Enjoy it. I love you.
He flicked through the developed photos you took together, during birthday, Christmas, dates. Each of them had a comment on top. You wrote them neatly with a coloured pen. It was a small thing you could do for him. As he flicked through the photos, he started to cry. The times you had together was so fun. The photo when you put cream on his face, when he suddenly kissed you, when you went to the beach… They were times that he wished never ended.
He took out the letter that he wrote to you two years ago. As he read it his tears started to stop and he started to laugh.
I’m Seungri, I want you to be my girlfriend. No, you have to be my girlfriend because it’s very rare for me to like a girl. You should treasure me. As your boyfriend I will now protect you from everything.
“How could I write this? Why would you even accept me back then to such a stupid confession?” he said to himself. He took the yellow usb and plugged it in his laptop. He laid on his bed and opened the folder. There was only one file, it was a video clip. He opened it and saw your face…
Hey Stupid! Happy to see my face? Don’t cry just yet stupid! I just started the video! Well by the time you see this, you should have been through the whole treasure hunt, you should be a lot happier than you were a week or so ago right? Hmm.. what should I say now? Um… I want my Seungri to be a man and not cry because of me anymore, I want you to pick up all that you have left before, your work and your friends. I want you to work hard and earn a lot of money and repay your parents for raising you up. Most of all, I want you to find a girl that isn’t scared to the pressure like I am. I want you to find a girl that loves you a lot. I want you to find a girl that is better than me. Actually, I’ll be selfish, since you are selfish too haha. Don’t find a girlfriend for at least 3 months! I might get too jealous and play pranks on your new girlfriend as an angel in heaven haha.
“Stupid, I won’t get a girl that is better than you, there isn’t one!” Seungri said to the screen.
Um, I know you love it when I tell you I love you but I’m so reluctant to say it out right? Well I love you! I love the stupid guy that fell in love with me. I love the stupid guy that wrote such a stupid love letter to confess. I love the guy that protected me from scary fan girls. I love the guy that held me tight when I was feeling down. I love the guy that kissed me in such a special way no one else could. I love you Seungri. I really really love you…… Oh god, I’m starting to cry. I love you a lot but I’m too weak to love you. I’m so sorry. Please, please, please live a good life, live a good life for yourself and for me…. And if you ever miss me, look at the photos, if you miss my voice, watch the videos we took and watch this video. 3 months later, I hope you get a good girlfriend and forget this selfish girlfriend that couldn’t stay by your side because she was just. too. weak. I love you.
“You are the worse! How can I ever get a better girlfriend? Stop telling me to do that! But for you, I will definitely live a good life. I will never forget the selfish girl. I love you too.” Seungri smiled, he’s finally over with it and ready to continue with his life.