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Seeing Myself I’d never believed in fear until the day I lay helpless in a coma. I remember we were driving home from dinner when a drunk driver slammed into our car. I blacked out after that. When I awoke I heard beeping noises but I couldn’t open my eyes or control anything at all. I heard the doctors say “she is in a coma only time will tell.” I realized I was awake inside a helpless body. I tried to move but I couldn’t. I wanted to know where my parents where. I wanted to know what was going on and if they were ok! I heard my auntie. She said “they are gone… my sister and my brother in law are gone” My parents were gone. I heard mulitiple people come in which sounded like my auntie along with the rest of my family members. I desperately wanted to scream out and wake from the pain I was in. All of a sudden I could see again but instead of looking up at the ceiling I was looking down at myself. I didn’t quite understand. I started to move around. I wanted to yell out to my family so they could know I could hear them. My grandma sobbed “please ash come through we all love you so much.” The nurse walks in and tell everyone that visiting hours are over but they may wait in the waiting room if they would like. I decided to follow them out into the waiting room. Everyone was so upset, the tears in eveyones eyes I couldn’t stand to watch it anymore. I decided to to go back to the room where my body lay in the bed. I looked at my helpless body with bandage on my head. I flashed back to the moments where I had fought with my parents. Maybe I should just give in and go wit my parents I felt so alone and I wished I could’ve said goodbye to my parents. I wanted to tell them how much I loved then. I looked at myself and for once I was really seeing myself. I wanted to jump back inside my body but I couldn’t quite figure it out. The next morning my grandpa came and

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