This song that have chosen is what I wish we could be but we can't. The song is called “I wouldn’t mind” it explains how the girl would like to be with him because he makes her happy. Sadly right now I don't feel like that I love Jon and understand the whole can we wait but there is apart of me which is a big part that can’t do that. There are people that tell her oh he will never like you or no one will ever like you. Sometimes I think they are right no one does love me Im a dissapointment. I can never do anything right I'm sorry that i'm depressed and no one knows because I put a smile on my face and act like i'm happy but no one asks hey are you really. Sometimes I just felt he doesn’t care like everyone else around me he doesn’t text me or even talk to me when he is in front of me. …show more content…
Sometimes I think would it be so bad to move to Florida what is felt for me in California. Knowing that I have been waiting for something that's never going to happen and waste my time on it recently I was in Florida and cried mostly every night because I couldn't in Lakeport because I'm around everyone and everyone sees me. I did a lot of thinking and you I need fix what I have become and change how I think I can’t put a smile on my face all day and then what cry on my pillow i'm sick of it. I always take care of everyone making sure that they are happy but no one asks are you ok. And even if someone does it isn’t sincere they are just saying it Jon use to do that and it's like he is the one who's laughing at me. Someone is picking on me and him and he thinks it funny what's funny about someone saying Victoria Jon doesn’t like you so stop being crazy and say you're dating because you're not and you will never date and no one will ever love you. I HATE MYSELF I'm ugly not pretty and maybe if I was pretty I would be recognized by people I don't know anything anymore so there it