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"My father gave me the greatest gift anyone could give another person; he believed in me." This is a quote I've seen many girls my age share. When we think of a father, we think of a man who loves his children unconditionally, a man who would do anything to see us succeed. While many people are fortunate enough to have a positive male influence growing up, for some that is not the case. For as long as I can remember, my father was not consistently in my life. When I was very young I couldn't understand why that was. He would be there for long stretches of time, and he would seem perfectly normal, and then suddenly he would be gone. When I asked my mother where my dad was she would reply that he "wasn't feeling well" or that he was sick. It wasn't until I became older that I could understand what was going on; my mother eventually explained what the word 'alcoholism' meant. I thought maybe understanding what was wrong with my father would be comforting, but it …show more content…
At the time I couldn't understand why new people would want to get to know me. If my own father chose a bottle of liquor over me, why would anyone else care to be a part of my life? I thought my self esteem would be damaged for the rest of my life. There were friends I could've made, schools I could've performed better at, and job positions I could've recieved that I just didn't feel worthy of. I wasn't able to look at the person I actually was. All I saw when I looked at myself was my father's mistakes. It's taken me such a long time to accept that I am, in fact, worthy of whatever I can set my mind to. While so many other girls get that assurance from their fathers, I had to fight to find that within myself. I have learned to accept that my father's alcoholism prevented him from being there for me properly, but it doesn't mean I wasn't loved or that I don't deserve love in the

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