I am pretty much just a little girl in a slightly grown up looking body who is afraid of most things and acts cold because she is needs love so much but does not understand how it works. In my twenty-some years, I have learned that I seek personal validation and self-worth through male attention. I feel like there are a number of reasons why I do this, but this essay will focus on the impacts of society and my parents’ relationship on my psyche.

I come from a well-standing middle class family; however, my socioeconomic standing required me to take the first job I came across, regardless of the environment. At first, this job seemed perfect. It did not require much responsibility, it was close enough to home that I could walk there after school, and I could work on homework when the store was not busy. While all of those things were true, I would have benefitted from the opportunity to explore other options if I did not need to start earning immediately due to my family’s average income. After just one day, I learned that one employee had been working there for years and had tried dating every cashier. This was possible because the owner’s son only hired cashiers of a certain age, …show more content…
My parents divorced when I was three. I remember things form before they split, and I have seen the way my dad has treated my mom over the years after that. From a very young age, I learned that to be cruel and emotionless meant you had the upper hand, because that was how my dad treated his wife. Every time watching them fight, my mom would seem like the irrational one because she became emotional, while my dad was able to walk away, switch it off, and laugh. I am quite proud I share that same ability with my father, but I have come to see how cruelly I use it. That is something I am making an effort to